I pray for you at night,
in darkness and in light,
I muse on my childhood
I drink your love
and tell the wind in secret
about the burning ache of my heart
At night
I bring you poetry—
the sharpened words, scorched in ache and joy
At night
The fetus of my dreams
grows in your womb
I breathe your dawn
at the end of the night
A pilgrim I become to your shrine of peace
at the end of the night
At night I go to you
Breaking through the darkness;
tearing through the mist.
One day I will slip away unnoticed
into the darkness of self-exile
And
I will burn my poems
Severing all the intimate bonds
(bonds those have strained by now)
I will roam like a free man
Like a long whistle of a train
life will fall asleep at a junction unknown
No haste of desires left
The embers of poetry
will set me ablaze
The Southern path leads only to darkness
Endless doubt to the North
West is a vertical division of rootless souls
To the East is mere expansive light
Hold my hands brother
Let us seek sunlight
Blind simultaneous vision
This is no time for
Rabindranath's southern breeze
Had I blossomed as they demanded
Had I flourished as they demanded
I would not have been unemployed
My birthday would not have become death anniversary
Had I acted according to them...
Or it could have been like this too—
I obeyed their orders obediently—
I blossomed and flourished,
branched out and got settled
Celebrated birth anniversaries
Twenty days, twenty months, twenty years...
For the rulers, the astronomical position of the stars never remains the same
In fact we people are not right oftentimes
Should we bloom just because they demand so!
Should we float away or drift
Should we celebrate birthdays or mourn deaths
just because they demand so!
We must think, we must be able to think...
We too have our days— our time
Class consciousness makes us aware of it
It's been a long time since we learned,
But it has not yet fallen night
One day our poems will tell
That here there were more people alive than the dead
Flowers bloomed, birds in flight
Life was full of music and song
There were men, there were great men
There were men, there were great men
There were women, there were noble women
There was speech, there was philosophy Charvaka
There was the people, there was collective mind
There was continuous conversation on country, culture, civilization
One day our poems will tell
How the tree of eternal consciousness was uprooted
There was crisis in civilization— crisis in the human soul
The horizon of creation had blackened out while rushing to build God's abode,
With the help of job ads a new king came to power
In the great deluge of ambrosial sermons by him and his council;
In an attempt to become the Vishwaguru,
the state turned bankrupt
The country had become an empty, dry conch shell
Who has stolen the most precious ornaments
Who has plucked the flowers
Who has broken the birds' wings
Who has auctioned King Janaka's plough
Who has cultivated the land
that was tilled by the non-Aryans
towards the end of the Krishna civilization
One day our poetry will reveal everything
It will reveal that, people never had accepted a body of stone, rejecting the melody of the soul.
I should have written to you
many things, I should have written
I should have told you
many things, I should have told you
before the cruel winter passed by playing the flute
Melodies of my heart do not come up to my lips
Those I should have sung, drenched in dewy silence
In cozy nights,there should have been a flute tune playing a blue note,
holding a lamb close to the chest
Yet I have not sung, never have I waded in the dewy silence
I, the atheist poet of the nineties,
who am inspired by the warmth of the Seventies,
a restless soldier chasing the magical vision of a free state
Having passed so many days in exile—
Mao's cavalryman in eyes, Lenin, Ho Chi Minh in hands
Searching for the golden paddy kernel in a material world ,
I play the auspicious veena
I should have written to you
many things, I should have written
before the cruel winter passed by playing the flute
Before the fall of the devastated days
of my homeland, under winter's weight
I should have written to you...
Shall I remain like this
to witness the golden hues in my verse
Unperturbed consciousness of materialism,
a fossil heart devoid of agitation
No one comes, opening the gate,
Astonishing distance,
vocal hatred
I am the seventh classical raaga— Nishad,
always a seeker of melody and rhythm
Shall I remain like this
waiting and waiting for
the traveler of the Sun-path
My dream-diction routes towards a dauntless selection
I too can go towards the horizon,
And can chant Vasudhaiva Kutumbakam
Let the Verse of Time
rise and hum
